try with all your might to discover reality for yourself.
this condtioning creates clairty.
the " goal " of buddhism.
dont give up.
focus and clarity.
discovery of the mind.
Quote: "How much is this gonna cost? ".........
It costs everything you have got, ever had, ever would have had, and ever thought you had.
It does not cost nothing. Nothing is what you get for everything. Which is a wealth beyond measure that you would not trade for anything.