Sure, its just delusion.  My subconscious at work, no doubt.  Still, I have benefitted greatly from the information she has given me over the years.

I asked her if she knew you, Shayne.  She said, "Sure.  I know everyone.* 

I said, "I dont want that guy around our place in the Void."  She said, "Thats fine. Hes nothing to me."

You think youre Maitreya and youre going to rule the world, and change everything ?  I dont have such delusions of grandeur. 

My delusion is just of loving the Spirit, and wanting to get home to her in the Void.  Thats all.  Ive said to her, "As far as Im concerned, I dont need anything else.  You can strip it all down to just us in the Void and I will be fine with that."  And she says thats just what she has in mind.

This world, this reality, is just one plane of existence.  I have my own, which is of course just my own delusion, that which I choose to believe in, and in it there is only the Spirit and me, forever.  I really dont care what happens to the rest of creation.

Actually, Shayne, I give myself regular tests of sanity that I learned as a Vet Rep working psych cases. 

For instance, testing for abstract thought.  If asked why someone shouldnt cry over spilt milk, someone with limited mental capacity would say, *Just wipe it up*.  Obviously, the reason is that it is already spilt, and there is nothing to be gained by crying about it.

Serial sevens is another test, for concentration, starting at 100 and counting backward by sevens.  I can do that no problem, back into negative integers, indefinitely.

Another test, for memory, is to recall the Presidents backward from Obama as far as one can.  I can recall all of the Presidents, back to Washington, and even tell you a bit about their Presidency in most cases.  Same with the Kings and Queens of England, back to William the Conqueror, and in most cases can add an anecdote or two about their reign.

My reference to the Spirit being a manifestation of my subconscious mind is a bit broad based.  What is not subconscious mind, afterall ? 

One of my favorite anecdotes is from the reign of King John.

When he visited his nobles, he was fond of sleeping with their wives.  Knowing this, one of the nobles he was to visit retained a prostitute from the local villiage to pose as his wife during a visit from King John.

In the morning, King John complimented the noble saying that his wife was very talented in bed.  The noble laughed and said that was no surprise considering she was a professional.  And then he related the story of retaining a prostitute for his entertainment.

King John was furious, confiscated the nobles property, and the man had to flee for his life into exile.

I guess the moral of the story is that he should not have enlightened the King as to the nature of his experience, and should have kept his mouth shut about it.

Quote: "still didnt answer my question.

real or in your head?

pick.


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Arguing about what is real or not is a waste of time. 

She is real to me.  Thats all I need to know.

There was a Twilight Zone episode of a confederate soldier being hanged from a bridge.  The rope broke and he fell into the water.  Then he escaped downstream, and found his way home.

He lived out the rest of his life on his farm, and then on his deathbed, suddenly, the rope snapped taut and he died, hanged from the bridge.  In the amount of time it took him to fall to the end of the rope, he had the illusion, or delusion, or escaping and going home, living out a full life.

So he did live out a full life, and then again he didnt.  Whats the difference ?

The Spirit is real to me, and Im spending an eternity with her in the Void, or not, whats the difference ?  Its all inside, its an inside job.  If you reach deep enough inside yourself you find your Self.  I am her, and she is me, and we are It together, forever.

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Anyone who is constantly checking himself is very unsure of himself, and needs constant reassurance. Doubly so when he feels that someone else is testing him. Which is always.

Quote: "if YOU reach deep inside yourself that is YOU looking for yourself.

this is wrong wrong wrong.

self looks for self.

there is NO YOU deep inside yourself.

so we have two selves?

your highly highly confused.

we have TWO selves?

thats what your saying.




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Nevermind....

You and Shayne are both nuts as far as Im concerned.

I doubt if either of you can pass these simple tests.

I think you just mess with people here out of meanness, because you dont get it, and cant get it, and you know you never will.  Like laying on the horn when Nuns are in the crosswalk, and laughing like Renfield when they jump.