Youre not missing anything. 

Awakening does not change who you are, just your perspective.

I was not a nice guy before awakening.  I was very ambitious.  I was headed for the top, and God help anyone who got in my way.  Ive got a dark side that makes Ghengis Kahn look like a brownie scout.  I saw a picture of him standing next to a pile of heads he had cut off, and only thought, *sloppy work*, as they were not neatly stacked.

Im still not a nice guy.  But Im no longer ambitious.  I am more generous and compassionate because no one is in my way.  I am alive while living, and then I am going home to the Void.

The actual experience of awakening was like dying, and then coming back to life.  The only *bliss, joy, love, compassion, flow, etc* that have come from that is out of the love that I have gained for the Spirit, and that I have felt from her since then.   

Whoever, or whatever, she is, Im not entirely sure.  Others seem to have their own version of the same thing.  Id say more than anything, I have peace from it.  And I know too that she is a creation, like me, of the Universal Mind, the Original Self, essentially how the Self chooses to be with my little self, myself. 

Thats what is different for me.  For anyone else, I dont know.

Quote: "I'm sorry Joe Chip but I'm not finding your replies helpful."
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What, you no lika *Chips Quips* ?!

They are an art form in themselves. 

And he is a top notch writer, when he feels like it.

Quote: "Now I know what it feels like."
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Osho was talking about his enlightenment when suddenly the light went out, and then they came back on again.

He said, *Thats it.  Thats what enlightenment is like.  The lights go out, and then they come back on again.*

For me, complete darkness in the Void, nothingness, for about 15 minutes, first as the One, and then as myself there with the One. 

For others, not so.  One fellow told me he walked for about 20 minutes in full daylight without even realizing it before essentially *coming back to himself*.

Its a very unique experience, tailored just for you.  What did you experience ?

I'm not enlightened.  Maybe I will get enlightened here, has anyone else ever got enlightened here?

You can say so, and should, at least honestly if asked.

But only another awakened person will understand what you have to say about it.

And they are already awakened, so you cant help them, or they you.

When the first white explorers returned to the East and told people about the Grand Canyon, no one would believe them.  Only those who had been on the expedition and had seen it themselves would believe it.

Now Grand Canyon national park receives over 1 million visitors per year.

Maybe someday everyone will be awakened.

Quote: "I think I can stop thinking.. and just eat watermelon... so sweet and very yummy, my tummy is happy.

That is not enlightenment but I am very relaxed. No problem arises. Bingo and bingo again and again. It is like I have won in the casino or even better.
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wtf