One day, Chang-sha Ching-tsen (d. 868), one of the well-known Chinese Ch'an masters, wandered in the mountain. When he was back just at the gate of the temple, the head monk asked him:
-Where have you been, Sir?
Perhaps as I progress into greater realization , I know no choice , accept no choice and naturally proceed into greater realization.....but now since I am full of pollutant , still with myself , choices is reflection of myself , result of myself and is part of learning lesson ...same as mind , same as thinking ........all these is in my emotion part of myself .
Buddhism is the process freedom from self , freedom for knowledge , freedom from any choices , emotion to make choices ................but still is a result of self realization not by force or desire .
Naturally learn , discover dont fight it , go create intention to against it because that is suffering .