A monk came to say good bye to Ch'an master Niaowo (Bird's Nest). He said:
-Thank you, Sir, for everything you've done for me. Now I got to go.
-Where will you go?
-Any place where I can learn Buddha dharmas.
Perhaps as I progress into greater realization , I know no choice , accept no choice and naturally proceed into greater realization.....but now since I am full of pollutant , still with myself , choices is reflection of myself , result of myself and is part of learning lesson ...same as mind , same as thinking ........all these is in my emotion part of myself .
Buddhism is the process freedom from self , freedom for knowledge , freedom from any choices , emotion to make choices ................but still is a result of self realization not by force or desire .
Naturally learn , discover dont fight it , go create intention to against it because that is suffering .