Ching Ch'ing, a Chinese Ch'an master, asked a monk:
-What is the sound outside?
The monk answered:
-That is the sound of rain.
The master said:
-Sentient beings are upside down, they lose themselves in pursuit of things.
Perhaps as I progress into greater realization , I know no choice , accept no choice and naturally proceed into greater realization.....but now since I am full of pollutant , still with myself , choices is reflection of myself , result of myself and is part of learning lesson ...same as mind , same as thinking ........all these is in my emotion part of myself .
Buddhism is the process freedom from self , freedom for knowledge , freedom from any choices , emotion to make choices ................but still is a result of self realization not by force or desire .
Naturally learn , discover dont fight it , go create intention to against it because that is suffering .